Happy Self-Love Day! I recently had a great opportunity to speak on Divine Goddess Radio, blog talk radio that gets heard world-wide. It was such an amazing experience on so many levels. My topic of conversation was “Loving Yourself Through Spirit”. It was such a timely topic with Valentine’s day approaching. Love for oneself seems to get lost when our ego is kicked high. I talked about how to incorporate spirit daily into our lives to love with confidence. Partnering with spirit is vital to the human experience and the love of self must be place to start.
For me, my patterns of this thinking was developed early on and just continued to escalate into adulthood. I was the people pleaser who really didn’t want to do anything to make someone else upset or not like me. I thought if he/she would like me then I will be worth something and then I will be loved. I created thought patterns and beliefs that tore me down day after day. Since this fear was so strong inside of me I put others needs before my own. I agreed to doing things even though I really didn’t want to. I would check in with others before making any plans myself –I didn’t want to miss out on anything. I found I was constantly looking for reassurance from others that I was indeed likeable let alone loveable. This of course led to years of self-sabotaging behaviors. It led me into non healthy relationships both intimate and friendships. I was so hard on myself that I criticized, judged, and emotionally abused myself. It was my way of protecting myself from anyone else feeling, thinking or believing negative things about me. For me this battle led to a deep dark depression that didn’t really ever go away. Oh sure it came and went depending on what was going on in my life but it was all under the direction of outside circumstances. I never quite felt good enough and I was a master at playing the victim role. I was great at solving problems. I later realized through my healing with spirit that I thought I was so great at solving problems that my ego would just create the problems for me to solve. It was hard for me to find any fulfillment in life. My jobs were all just OK, my days were all just OK, and then as I got older my marriage was all just OK, my kids even got days where they were just OK. I mean, really? My own kids.
If anyone of you have ever felt this way or still continue to feel this way chances are you are not hearing spirit. I take that back… You are NOT hearing spirit. When you tune into spirit you can only feel love. True unconditional love. That is what spirit is all about.
I am blessed that I have and continue to learn the lesson of self-love. It is the most rewarding healing I have ever done. Please check out Divine Goddess Radio and listen in to my talk. It will give you great insights and tools to start today to build a deep loving relationship with yourself.